Okay, I'm not sure where to begin. I think Nic is depressed or going through some kind of inner battle that I'm not invited to. We had a good night Friday and Saturday. Friday night he apologized for being so rude and we went and saw the Chuck and Larry movie. HILARIOUS by the way. But, it was so cute, I'm being a total girl here, but we laughed so hard through the whole movie and he kept laughing and putting his head on my shoulder. It was such a good time. Then Saturday was a good day. But, Sunday, well Sunday he went back to being grumpy and unattached and wanting to be left alone.
My car broke on Friday so we are carpooling too right now. So, once again this morning I was told to leave him alone. He has a calculus final today so I know he is stressed about that. But, come on man seriously. I just don't get it. And I don't know what I should do.
He is leaving tomorrow to go to Chicago for a day or so. His best friend from college is getting sent into the war and he wants to say goodbye. Chicago is about 5 hours away from us. I am kinda glad that he is going but than at the same time worried ya know. He is so not into "us" right now. It's horrible, and I'm miserable.
I tell myself that I am not going to let him bring me down. I am an incredibly cheery person. But, we are one flesh now, and how he acts affects the way I feel. I know this. And it sucks.
He plays poker online all the time, and just kinda looks dead in the eyes.
Please give me some advice on what to do. We were going to see a counselor but he keeps coming up with reasons not to go. He has to work, he is going to see his friend.....
I'm at a loss. I just want my wonderful, loving, sweetheart husband back. And I seriously don't know what to do. Than doubtful thoughts pop up in my mind, like does he even love me anymore? Which, would destroy me. I adore this man. And I just feel like he doesn't want to try.
Should I grant his wish and just leave him alone and give him space?? See if whatever is going on with him works itself out?? I don't know.
I just want to be at peace and be happy. I want a loving relationship with my knight in shining armor. But, how do I do it?? How do I win back this man who holds my heart?
Gosh, I'm such a pity case today. Sorry ladies but I just don't know what to do.
Thanks for listening!
Peace&Love
I am my beloved, and my beloved is mine...
So in love!
3 comments:
Hang in there girl - I totally feel for you and understand how terrible that can feel. If you need to talk - you know how to reach me (use fairydust6624@yahoo.com & I will write back w/the email I use most unless you already have it) and it's all safe with me. I think about you often and wish you the best - you are in my prayers! Lis xo
awww sweetie. I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Is he a christian? I know it may not be a great question to ask, but you are a christian and you know the dramatic differece that the Lord can make in your life. My best advice is to give it to God, let him take the burden of trying to be a perfect wife and trying to figure out what, if anything is going on with Nic. I know that is hard, but He is all powerful and you are Hid child. he will always take care of you. Sometimes He puts us through these trials in our life to make us stronger. Start going to the counseling and just pray that he will join you. I'm here to listen and I hope things begin to turn around for you soon!
I started to respond to this yesterday and got interrupted before I could finish.
I'm sorry that you are going through this. I'm going through something similar right now, but on a different level I think. I started to read "Relationship Rescue" by Dr. Phil. I also have the workbook and have started a private blog {only Lisa is invited so far} to process my thoughts and answer some questions that have been eating at me. If you would like to be a part of this too, let me know. Email ~ mapfragoso@sbcglobal.net. It's a learning process and I'm learning that it starts with me. I want to desperately save my marriage and I feel that from you too. I know you're going on your trip soon, but you're more than welcome. It might even be helpful to you if you answer the same questions. There's lots of memes and quizzes involved. Let me know. I'd like to help any way that I know how.
Hang in there Sweetie. I know it's difficult and very emotional. I know this...I'm there too, but in a different sense. If you need to talk feel free to email as well.
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