thank you guys for your support in my little life issues. I appreciate it all so much!!

Nic and I are doing alright. He went to Chicago yesterday and comes back today, so it was the first night I had without him since we were married. It was sad, but it felt nice to have some breathing room. He is being such a sweetheart now, but who knows how long it will last. I try and keep my head up and not be an insecure, jealous, baby!! haha. Because, we all know how un attratctive that is.

But, the kink in the already kinked up chain is my parents. They were expecting us to go to counseling and we haven't even had a chance. So, they send us an email telling us that they are deeply dissapointed in us for not going to the meeting yet. And that we need to put our marriage first before any other things i.e. work, school. I was really hurt by their email because it was pretty bitter and uncalled for. At least I thought so. I called them when I was down and asked for their advice. But, come on, I'm an adult here and you don't need to slap my wrist because I didn't go to counseling the day YOU wanted me to. I never said we are not going. We just don't have time. They cannot grasp that. It bugs the crap out of me. Seriously, they have complete job flexibility whereas Nic and I can't tell our bosses when we can work, they tell us. Just like almost everyone else in America!

So, I'm hurt by my parents, but Nic and I are doing a little better. Which is always good! I just pray pray and pray that it stays that way!

I feel like my relationship with God is so lax. It's such a hard thing sometimes to keep your head towards Him when everything is so confusing and falling apart. It's so much easier to slip and do the wrong thing. Why can't the right way be easy! Why does life have to be such a struggle sometimes!

I'm freaking out about our trip. We leave in 9 days! Oh man 9 days! That's like nothing, and I feel so unprepared and scared and nervous and anxious and I have no idea what to expect. It's going to be such an amazing trip, but the closer it gets, the more reality sets in. My life has been a rollarcoaster since we have decided to take this trip, and I just hope that I am emotionally ready to be there in 9 days. I can't counsel kids if I need help myself! So, pray that I can get my heart straightened out in this short amount of time.

But, I can't to so downtrodden all the time, so the sun is shining and I go to lunch in an hour and a half so hey!

Peace&Love